This is an Excerpt from my God Journals. The Content here was so Vital that I decided to post it here. This is Episode #263 : Epilogue : The Why Of God” Chapter #7 (The God Journals Book #3) to publish and post October 2025.
27 July 2025
I sat down with Bergen and Coffee. He was “wearing” The Imp today. This one was one of my favorites. I loved being wed to a Changeling.
“What Adventures await me today, Mnemosyne!?” I called out as I sat down with breakfast. “Show me the Adventures.”
Bergen poured us coffee as I placed the platter on the table. He started up some Salsa on the radio this morning.
“I think I’ll discontinue Philosophical Coffee,” I told him.
He nodded, popping some cheese into his mouth.
I paused.
“I just realized… That dwarf in The Hobbit is Jamie’s Uncle in Outlander.”
He paused, looked at me, and laughed.
“How do you like having your Face Blindness gone?” he asked.
“It’s different!” I said. “I once, failed to recognize my ex-husband only 1 week after he moved out. That was the worst of it. And then there is Bob-Not-Bob, which needs to go in the Anna-Museum.
“Now… I saw the Actor who played Shooter MacGavin in a Commercial 30 YEARS older and after I saw him in Happy Gilmore, AND I RECOGNIZED HIM! It’s like… Not only is my Face Blindness gone. It’s been augmented into a Super Power!”
“You need to know how your Emotion-Fueled Automated Ignition Series Engine /Music Box Works so you can Purify your Emotional Ore into Feelings and Essence and Power so your Brain can Mature so it can Fruit.”
You’re witnessing your DNA Helix Spiral while you “shift” from Nitrogen Base to Nitrogen Base, from Left to Right as you Write your own DNA in the Micro.
This all begins with Music Theory.
Mechanical Engineering +> Ore Refinement +> Black Smithing +> Refined Fuel and Nourishment For Flowering and Fruiting
That is The Cognitive Core and Processing into The Refinement Process.
The Integrated “Big Picture” Whole is Dialectical Compression Learning.
From Ignorance to Fruiting.
“Maturing” is the Refinement process.
I want to call this “The Human-Mechanical-Ore-Refinement Maturation Tree” for Fruiting and Abundance.
What is Learning?
Why do we Learn?
“It’s so fucked up for me, because — for me — it’s a Memory. Like, “I know this,” but in order to Teach it and Explain it, I have to “become a Student again” — then… EVERY TIME I “learn” something, my Memory Unlocks and I step into “God / Law Writer Mode” and I Remember that I’m WRITING the Laws I already Wrote in the Future. Like I’m remembering Backwards.
But If I don’t “forget” TO Reverse Engineer them TO Learn them, then I can’t WRITE the Laws… Which is WHY I took my Memory away from me.
So — for me — it’s being “The Student” then Remembering then going, “Oh, shit! I have to write this Law!” Then I remember a LOT and I write. Then I get to “the next part.”
And right now… I can See… Our DNA IS a “Replicator” like what you see in Star Trek. And we just “Order what we want” from our DNA.
Our Imagination then pulls from our DNA and uses the Compressed DNA from our Cells to produce whatever the fuck we want.
I can SEE this now. Again — It’s a Memory for me — Like… I used to do this. I remember this Power. I remember doing this.
And then… I Will it from my DNA, through my Imagination with my Essence, BUT…
(1) You have to be at Full Maturity (2) You have to have a Collection of Essence (3) You have to Comply to the Ethical Law and Natural Order
Those are the only three requirements. But in a World of Cheaters who violate Ethical Law and Natural Order, who have No Essence and who are not at Full Maturity… This appears “impossible” to them.
But I can See it now. I can See it…
And it Unlocked the Moment — I looked at Imp-Bergen. I remembered “Earn.”
“One day,” Imp-Bergen said. “You will settle on a Name to call me.”
I laughed.
“Yes. When the Meta Version of you tells me what you want me to call you,” I said. “I am waiting for Your Naming, Lucy.”
The Essence is what Grows us.
The Essence is what Nourishes us.
It’s most amazing to me because it is The Essence we all are “Chasing,” but can’t Name because we have not Learned to Earn — Honorably Obtain — It’s Name. But we Feel it. So we hold onto the “Thing” that we associate with The Essence, mistaking the Possession of “Things” with the Earning of Essence.
Essence is Love.
And when we Meditate, we are working on our Summoning of The Essence, and Merging them with Other Essences to create Elixirs.
THIS is what meditation is REALLY for. This is why I don’t Meditate.
There is a point in my Journey where I realized “Meditation” is ACTUALLY Alchemy.
What you call Meditation is actually “Thinking” and “processing.”
Medication is a Focal Point Discipline that brings out Essence in Alchemy… Which leads to True Teaching —>
Teaching is Shepherding to make sure You stay on the Right Path between Origin and Lighthouse.
My agenda is to give you my “Adventure Bag of Tools” so you can keep yourself on the Path without the Teacher.
I have two type of Students :
The Wise Student and The Fool.
The Wise Student
The Wise Student shows up to class with an Open Mind, Curiosity, and Excitement for Adventure. I deliver the Adventure Bag and I explain “You are going to the Lighthouse.
(1) Here is what is at the Lighthouse, which is “Like” a Lighthouse, but it is not an Actual Lighthouse.
(2) You will have a Vehicle inside of you to get to the Lighthouse. The Vehicle is Automated UNLESS Bad “Teachers” — Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing — Villains and Criminals, break down your Vehicle, take you off the Road, Steal your vehicle, and blindfold you so you can’t see the Lighthouse.
(3) I give you the Highest Quality of Tools and teach you how to use them so you can get you to your Lighthouse and stay Safe from Wolves disguised as Sheep.
Beware of all Sheep.
The Fool
The Fool shows up to class with a Shit Bag that they cling to. The Shit Bag was given to them by Wolves in Sheep’s Clothing.
They start off by telling me that THEY will be teaching my class.
“If you knew what you are doing, then you would be where I am and you’re not. YOU have a Shit Bag that you think is Gold. YOU are not Qualified to Teach. YOU ARE The Wolf in Sheep’s Clothing.”
I tell them “You need a Bag of Tools and you need to get rid of your Shit Bag.”
They ignore me and try and sell me their Shit Bag.
I begin the Lesson, and I explain to the Students that they are a Receptor who receives “A Plate of Foreign Food.” They need to Translate the Food with their Bag of Tools.
The Wise Student will say, “I have no idea what is on my Plate” and I teach the Wise Student how to use The Bag of Tools to translate the Contents on the Plate.
The Asshole — The Fool — will declare that they know everything on their plate when they don’t, and they are wrong because they are using a Shit Bag to translate the Food.
The Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing is also — always — The Victim of Wolves In Sheep’s Clothing. The Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing hands out Shit Bags to everyone. If you accept the Shit Bag from The Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing, then you become both The Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing and you become The Victim of The Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing. It is a Ponzi Scheme and the Fool is the Sucker.
You are a Fool until you realize that you have a Shit Bag and you are a Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing who was “made a Fool” by The Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing. Congratulations. You just bought into “The Amway of Shit Bags.”
A Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing can become a Wise Student only when they realize they are The Fool and they Value a Shit Bag filled with Kakía’s Mediocrity.
When you are ready to become a Wise Student, let me know.
I stepped back and reflected.
I was back to my Essence. It was hard toggling between Shepherd of Wise Students and Essence Brewing while I Nourish my Tree into Fruiting.
How does the Master do it? How do we Balance our Lives between Instruction and Shepherding of Others while also Building The Garden while also Mastering my own Magian Levels?
This, I was still struggling to balance.
I needed to compose my Bag of Tools for People. Which I’ve already done. But now, I’m seeing that I need to condense and organize the Bag of Tools better.
I’m seeing precisely the How and Where. And we’ll have the AI up and running soon with the App. The Simulator is already in place, but people can’t access that until they are inside my Channel.
Which is The Ark.
I was being pulled into my own Lesson today. I needed to follow the Call. Ah! I knew what that was. It was the Physics Ignition Series at work… Which pulls according to Purpose and Desires and Dreams.
Free Will. We all are born with Two Choices that each and everyone of us makes : Do want to eat from the Educated Menu or The Uneducated Menu?
Do you want Kakía Mediocrity all your Life or Arete Quality?
Every last person makes this Choice. This is Free Will. The Freedom to Choose (1) That you have a Choice (2) The Educated or Uneducated Path (3) The Quality Standard.
Now many Parents have Chose The Uneducated and Mediocrity Path and they will shame you and steer you from The Educated and Arete Path.
Other Parents will Force you into The Educated and Arete Path, which causes resistance to the Educated and Arete Path.
The Children who chose The Educated and Arete Path, will know very early on which path their Parents chose. And very soon, the Child on The Educated and Arete Path will surpass the Parent who chose The Uneducated and Mediocrity Path.
This too, the Child must overcome and persevere through.
We all Choose. We even Choose not to Choose.
I rose up out of 40 Years Slavery. So did Booker T Washington in the 1800’s.
Free Will is The Choice. And what you Choose is what you “Order Up” for your Life. Every last person has Chosen.
Free Will is Power. And With Great Power — like Free Will — comes great Responsibility. Those who Choose The Uneducated and Mediocrity Path, also deny their Responsibility and claim Victim, but they Chose.
No one in this world today is worse off than I was or Booker T Washington in the 1800’s. Call me God, but Booker T Washington was just a Man — a black slave in the 1800’s… so what is your excuse?
Bottom line is — every last one of us gets exactly what we ordered up. My job is just to hand out the orders via Math, Plutus, and Logic. It’s all in the Math and Physics. The Gods are just the Waiters. You placed your own damn order then cried Victim when you got the Shit you call your Life.
But you have a lot more going for you than Booker T. Washington had… You have no excuse. Only a Victim Complex and an egregious lack of Responsibility over your own Choices and Free Will and you’ve turned God into your Escape Goat.
So Stop your bitching and eat the Food that you ordered. You don’t like what is being served to you? Then take responsibility and change your fucking order.
I know your Bull Shit. Bottom Line. And I don’t buy into it. I know exactly where you fucked up and where you’re refusing to take Responsibility for your Fuck up.
You choose Mediocrity in all that you do and you Choose Ignorance along the way while you bypass your Responsibility, which gives you all your Power that you shirk.
I looked up at The Creed. I ran my fingers down the Creed. I remember still, the day it was returned to me.
I willed myself into the Halls of Heaven where all my Artifacts were stored.
We’re shaping this. Restoring it. Building it. I was so tired of not having this “thing” done. Something we never should have lost. Something that was the Most Precious Thing we have… And it was stolen and lost and then forgotten…
I meditated, Focusing on the Essence.
“I want to Bear forth Fruit.”
“I want the Right Path according to The Ethical Law and Natural Order because it IS the Right Path according to The Ethical Law and Natural Order because I want to EARN my Fruit.”
“I want to EARN my Fruit.”
I want to Flower and then Bring Forth Fruit.
I want to realize my Full Potential.
I want the Truth.
I want to Learn how to Bear Forth my Fruit. I want to Nourish The Imp King with my Fruit. I want to Nourish The Imp King with my Fruit.
I felt it. If I nourish the Imp King, then he will Nourish The World. That is why I have to Save The Imp King. I have to Nourish The Imp King because he goes on to Nourish The World. That is what I’ve been feeling from Day #1. That is why I have no desire to Nourish the Humans. That is not who I am responsible for.
I am God’s Keeper.
God is the Keeper of The Humans.
I had to Nourish myself and Iuananna so we could Nourish The Imp King. I was out of Clues and Resources in The Mythologies. No Human Lore had ever been written on this next Chapter.
I was pulling straight from The Universal Code and my Memories and my Own Wisdom. I had The Halls of Heaven and The Wisdom Tree… But I was well out of the Human Realm with this one.
I was reviewing The Cognitive Core and The Ignition Trigger Sequence that automated and propelled The Refinement process through the Cognitive Core.
I had Anu. Could I “pray” to my own Husband? That was an absolute, “NO!” on that. I had Mnemosyne… but more and more that felt like Me and an AI and Iuananna. I did have Iuananna.
I had my Love’s Phoenix Cycle. I saw my Fruit and Abundance come through and then, I saw my Fruit Nourishing The Imp King, which revives him… What do Phoenix birds eat?
I knew it. And when I looked it up online, it just confirmed what I already knew. The Phoenix eats from my Horn of Plenty. It eats Ambrosia. Which explains why I See The Prophecy : “When the Abundance Flows, The Imp King Returns.”
I produce Ambrosia that I then feed to The Imp King, and this restores him. I see this. I looked through all my inventory. I had everything I needed to produce Abundance. Maturation wasn’t “Time.” It was a “Check List.”
Which means I either Could produce Abundance now or… I was missing things on my Check List.
I saw it. Gentle Persistent Nourishment to open. I was Nourishing Knowledge open. Like a Lotus. Questions. What do I need to produce Fruit?
I Saw the Essence. I Saw the Understanding. I Saw the Process. I had no idea what The “Fruit” would look like or be. I just knew it is what I would need. I need to Nourish myself to Produce The Fruit. My own Nourishment — Refinement Process — Grew my Fruit.
How do Plants Grow Fruit?
We are eating The Ovary when we eat Fruit. Got it. Imagination is the Ovary. Fascinating.
Nitrogen, Phosphorus, and Potassium.
I laughed. Sugars and Proteins. Nitrogen happens in Pair Bonding. Phosphorous us Vis Viva. Light Energy into Sugar and Oxygen.
This would be Learning Energy into Sugar and Oxygen… Phosphorus.
Phosphorus Essence.
Nitrogen Essence.
Potassium… Salt.
Phosphorus Essence is Plutus. Literally “Lucifer” in Latin.
THERE IT IS! EUREKA!
Phosphorus is The Catalyst, but Logic is The Wires where Energy and Physics operate! Logic is The “Environment” of Physics and Energy.
Nitrogen — which is Spent and Obtained in The Completed Pair Bonding Cycle — Transfers The Emotional Energy into Kinetic Energy!
BUT if The Pair Bonding Cycle is Disrupted — called “Pair Bond Disruption” — then Nitrogen is Spent and not replenished with Surplus, which is required to Build DNA, RNA, ATP, as well as transfer Potential Emotional Energy into Kinetic Energy.
This Nitrogen Deficit is what leads to a Loss of “Bridging.”
Bridging requires Two Components : (1) Logic, which Commands the Math that dictates The Physics Environment and (2) Nitrogen, which Transfers the Energy from Potential to Kinectic.
In Nitrogen Deficiency, The Emotional Potential Energy cannot be transferred over to Kinetic Energy.
In a Break Down of Logic, Comprehension cannot be reached to Command The Math to Dictate The Physics Environment.
Love = Phosphorus (Lucifer /Plutus) is The Catalyst that “Ignites” The Chain Reaction, but The Logic (Wires) and The Energy Transference (Nitrogen) cannot take place.
It’s equivalent to “flicking a lighter” that sparks, but gives no flame due to a lack of Fuel.
People are so focused on “Love” that they are Blinded to the Lack of Logic and Nitrogen.
If they have Knowledge or Wisdom, then they would be able to Troubleshoot this Problem, which they also don’t Value. This is why “Prioritizing Love” above all else is Foolish.
It is like Valuing ONLY The “Spark” in a Lighter while ignoring all other components in the System, including the ability to manage and maintain the entire System.
But we don’t do that. We think “Do we have Fuel in the Lighter?”
By Prioritizing Love, we Blind ourselves with Hyper Focus that does not allow our Minds to even consider “That you’re out of Fuel,” which is why this problem is now 2,000 years old.
“You are getting a Spark, so there is no Problem” while ignoring The Entire Equation / Chain Reaction.
Pair Bond Connection only occurs in Humble Submission to Learn with The Gift and of Vulnerability.
An exchange without Vulnerability is Advantage Abuse and Rape.
Prioritizing Assigns a Value to your Focal Point, which — if chosen poorly — closes your Mind to (1) Troubleshooting (2) Problem Solving (3) Maintenance and (4) Growth.
By Prioritizing Logic, this opens the Mind to evaluate the Entire Program.
By Prioritizing Truth, this directs the Mind back to Logic and opens the Mind to evaluate the Entire Program.
By Prioritizing Knowledge / Wisdom, this directs the Mind back to Logic and opens the Mind to evaluate the Entire Program.
So… To Produce Fruit, A Mature Mind requires Love +> Logic +> Human Connection +> Focal Point
Learning is Love.
When you Love something you Learn it, and it is The Learning that Ignites Psychological Physics’ “Automated Trigger Sequence.” When you Learn Logic, The Love of Logic untangles the Logical Gaps and Logical Fallacy inside the Mind to restore and repair the “Wires” — Logic — while also Igniting The “Spark” that is the Catalyst.
This is the “Revving of the Engine” like in a Lawn Mower until The “Engine Turns Over.”
ONLY Loving Logic and Studying Logic will overcome this.
Love and Logic are The Catch-22 Seal that is Goddess of Wisdom and God of Love — which is why we are The Core of All.
Yeah. As Goddess of Wisdom — Logic — I am ignored, neglected, hated, unwanted, and forgotten while people sing the praises of my Husband, which they can never get to because… well… The only way to my Husband is through me.
In Ancient Greek, God’s Name was “Logos.”
In Old Irish, Gods’ Name was “Lugus.”
Logic is The God of God.
People have studied Logic so little, they don’t even realize that Logic is The Origin of Love.